Letter from the Innards of My Soul

I vividly remember the first time I saw you. Probably for you I was just another admirer, but my eyes were fixated on you. Your smooth skin and gleaming body had me weak in the knees. Although I’m a relatively strong willed personality but honestly, I had been pining for you since a long time. That moment came as a redemption of my innermost feelings.

The primal nature of man is that of a hunter. Maybe it got the better of me at that moment, and I will partly blame that for my decision. Or maybe because you did play hard to get for years before we first met. Either way, my determination to make you mine soared above all logic. Otherwise known to be a balanced and practical man, even my friends were surprised to see that sudden shift of my loyalties.

I think the last two years that we spent together can safely be called a ‘match made in heaven’. Or at least that’s the way I want to remember them as. You know how it works – when you get your hands on something that you have been coveting – for what seems like eternity – you don’t leave any stone unturned to keep it close to your heart.

We travelled to so many countries together, and I never let you go out of my sight for even a second. I took you to places which (ahem) I was advised are unsafe for you to be seen in. Rather than just arm candy, I treated you like an extension of myself. You can’t deny that I loved you like a companion would, cared for you like a father would, and protected you like a brother would. Even if I was sick or not in the mood, I never let that rub off on you. I don’t know why did the power equation turn against me then?

I think all such relationships for me are over-rated and inherently doomed. You knew I had been through a similar experience in the past, but you also knew that I have learnt from my mistakes. As far as I can tell, I never repeated any of that reckless behaviour with you, did I? I was loyal to you like a rock. Despite being a man (and theoretically supposed to stray), I never even wandered. I swear, I didn’t even look at anyone else all that time we were together.

Then why did you lose interest in me? You used to be full of energy and be with me till we used to crash in bed together. Of late, I noticed how you started to wean out at lunch itself. My touch, which used to turn you on earlier, stopped exciting you. Your response left me heartbroken. I have been with you during your worst phase, when you were bloated up or even when you lost your memory and were literally lifeless. Your tastes were high maintenance, but I splurged on stupid things like music for you.

Sure, I understand you have moods and emotions. But did I not keep up with them? I’m not bragging, but a man like me could have acquired anyone in today’s materialistic world. I just wanted to give us a chance, and it looks like I was wrong. Two strong personalities such as ours can only keep up with each other till a point.

I will always wish the best for you. Its not easy to let go, but I believe only a bitter pill of parting ways is the best cure for this.

My Dearest iPhone – I wish you could read this. I tried to be faithful, I really did. But it is not working out between us anymore. And this time, its not me, its YOU. I wont let you go completely though. I will keep you as a second fiddle, just to keep reminding you of my loyalty. We had a good run, but now its time for someone else.

Welcome Google Nexus to the family.

P.S. I did keep you close to my (man’s) heart, every day, all the day. Hope you get the drift.